Why a secret blog?

Why indeed!

Because I don't want to have to explain anything to anyone about my feelings. I don't want to answer questions about why I feel the way I do. I just DO! I make NO apologies here, to friends or family. Strangers don't concern me as their feelings have no real impact on me. Love me or hate me, this is it and after a lifetime of being controlled by cravings for food I have the right to create my own little world where my feelings matter above all else.

Who am I? Who cares? I'm just like everyone else except I'm consumed with food. Depriving myself and indulging myself over and over and over...

My purpose is to have a safe place to talk about the insanity of the monster within that has compelled me to eat until I have become morbidly obese. I need a place to put down the ugliness of that monster, to reveal it's nasty face and to be relentlessly honest about how it has made me a crazy person who cannot cope with life.

And I can hardly cope at all....

So my secrets are going here, to be saved out in cyberspace for me and anyone else who cares to have a look. Don't say I didn't warn you, it won't be pretty....